Ten days ago I had to change my diet again. I thought I knew all about giving up favorite foods, those foods I crave and could eat any day. But I broke up with more foods last week. I was already in transition-mode, waiting for a doctor to confirm and clarify.
I started seeing a functional medicine doctor this past September. I had pondered the idea for a while so it was time to make it happen. I decided 3 years of just surviving each day was enough. (I’ll tell you more of my story soon.) And this year my food sensitivities have grown worse. I could speculate about food intolerances up to a point.
Because it’s hard to have concrete answers when you’re experimenting on your own.
The goal is to live well, to be healthy as a whole…and I want that to include more energy and fewer worries of reacting to something I put in my body.
The doctor gave me the new diet two weeks ago, but I couldn’t go home and begin immediately. I took four days and called them my “buffer days”. There were a few foods left in the house that I wanted to enjoy before I said goodbye. I needed time to plan future meals and shop at a different grocery store.
So I ate the last of my gluten-free chocolate chip cookies. I drank my fill of coffee with almond milk. I ate egg whites for breakfast or snack. I consumed more bacon in three days than I should have. And I enjoyed a bit of rice pasta with plenty of butter.
This sounds like a terrible way to start taking back my health, but I hadn’t fully given up these things.
Every meal included a last until that Monday when the firsts began.
Monday was the first day…
I didn’t drink coffee in more than two years.
I didn’t have eggs or egg whites for breakfast.
I couldn’t add butter to anything.
I couldn’t rely on homemade hummus for snack.
A lot of things changed and I will tell you the first three days were rough. I don’t know how I made it without sleeping the days away. The hunger was constant and I wondered if this is how I would feel for the next two months.
I cried the first morning. I was overwhelmed and longing for that warm cup of coffee to wake me up. I wanted those foods I had just been tasting the day before. And I didn’t want to take all of the supplements that are meant for my good. I’ve never been great at swallowing pills, but I knew I had to do it. I let out all of my tears and prepared myself for the task.
I could do it. And I did. I found a way because I’ve been determined to regain my health ever since this all began.
Ten days later and I’m already better. I’ve made it through the worst days.
Energy is rising.
Skin is clearing.
Appetite is stable.
And I have new foods I love.
I’m ready to begin a new year. Maybe 2015 is the year when many of my unanswered questions are resolved and I better understand what health means for my body.
For now I will do my part on this journey to healing.